Tales From The Darkroom

Great expectation comes with great disappointment

Boredom, depression, and waking up on the wrong side of the bed brings me to this.

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I've been living it for quite some time now, and believe me, it ain't funny if you're just waiting for things to happen.

First, the US trip. Early this year, I was expecting to go to US this May, but for some really good reason, I'm not. So much of dreaming of going back to NY.

Second, the Mabuhay Magazine. I was hoping to get some of my pictures published on it. I was 3 seconds late. Before I email it to my contact, I got an email that they have the pictures they needed. If only they have given me credits on my interior shots of Eastwood last year, I wouldn't be so eager to have my works published! (Fyi, getting my works published o n Mabuhay Magazine is one of my dreams.)

Third, the Palawan trip. The day they confirmed the approval of the job I was already dreaming of the island. But before my imagination sets my foot on the sand, I was awakened by an SMS saying that the trip will be moved to another date. Great. Just as I had cancelled my shoot and meetings. Then another SMS came. It 's cancelled. Everybody in the trip backed out. What a way to spoil someone's schedules.

These were my frustrations. And they had passed.

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Things aren't falling in the right place as of the moment. And I'm thinking of the right things to do. So far, there isn' t any great and subtle solution for the worst situation.

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What will you do if you found out that tomorrow will be the end of the world?

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Other people are planning ahead of their future while I sit still, thinking of what's going to happen today.

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I must go out now. I need to run.

"What if..."

Short but full of it eh?

This statement makes me think of dozens of issues.

Lowest

Bright lights all over...
...but it just doesn't seem to shine on me.

One after another,
Everything seems to blur.

Moving forward,
Moving backwards.

Everything seems to blur.

4x4

Some test shots using the Mamiya cam.

Should I buy the cam or should I buy the cam?

Hey hey

Hey Jason, Pam & Arvin, it was nice meeting you. :)
Mhay, nice seeing you parteeh again. Too bad I wasn't able to stay that long.

The Purpose Driven Life

Finally, after months of attempting to read the book, I got to read it today. I needed to console myself from the stuff I've been going through. I needed clarity and strength to go through all these.

First chapter of the book hit me right smack in the middle!
"Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self."

Points to Ponder: It's not about me.

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To be continued...

Missing diver

I miss diving! I miss the water!

I miss it so much that I had to wear my dive computer (watch) today.

I miss it so much that while we were hearing mass at Greenbelt, we were standing infront of the pond, I was staring hard at the water with a light underneath imagining I was doing a night dive!

I miss it so much that I had to call Jong right after the mass to invite the other divers for a dive this week.

I hope this pushes through...

Anyone up for a dive on Wednesday? :)