October 3, 2005
Nwo Waht?
Even this magic 8 ball can't help me decide.
Everything I think of these days are hitting me right where it hurts. Every little possibility of sumthin' sumthin', every decisions that are about to be made.. basta iba.
All the fun is slowly fading... No, it has nothing to do with the people I'm with, my friends are actually taking good care of me and the situation I'm in. And NO! I am not pregnant if that's what you're thinking!... It's just that, everyday is getting harder for me to get by. I keep thinking of all the stuff I need to do and the decisions I have to make for the future. I guess my anxiety is kicking in again. Quarter-life crisis maybe?
Just like Reuben and Andre of The Company, they have finally made their minds and they're taking that risk of the "what ifs". Andre left the country for good. Reuben is going solo. It was hard for them to do that, but they took that risk. A sad event for the group but they're molding their future by taking that risks.
I'd like to take that risk too, but... the but is what keeps distracting me and holding me to what I want to do.
Decisions decisions decisions... It's hard and it's turning my blood dry.
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Hay ang drama! Nakakaasar!